What Happened

I saw it coming before it actually happened. But like most, I still hoped that when the day came, it wouldn’t be me. But it was.

The irony of last week’s post about staying active at work was that I wrote that post and scheduled it out before everything went down. And once it did, I wasn’t going to go unschedule all of my hard work.

So what happened?

I was laid off from my full time job.

In fact, I was one of 20 laid off from my full time job in a means to cut overhead. I knew it was coming. The company hadn’t been profitable, they weren’t being financially smart, and then Facebook’s most recent algorithm changes shut down a huge program.

You could feel the anxiety and stress. Bosses were in meetings all day every single day. No one wanted to say anything. In many ways, I’m sure many couldn’t actually but unless you weren’t paying attention or were completely naive and oblivious, you had to know something was going to happen.

I pulled into the parking lot that day and saw our HR rep was in the office. Since she wasn’t there too often, I knew that wasn’t a good sign. And then, I couldn’t ignore the weird vibe. My anxiety shot through the roof and while I was working all morning, it was hard to focus. I had a meeting at 1pm and something about that just didn’t feel right. Turns out, that was the mass lay-off meeting. I saw it on the faces of some of the others present, they had no clue. I knew immediately.

In fact, I had started packing up my desk and my office that morning before the meeting. I was prepared to hang things back on the wall but I really didn’t think I would need to. After it happened, I walked back to my desk. I messaged my coworker in Seattle to say goodbye. I texted a few friends. I logged out of my accounts. I signed the paperwork and I handed that and my laptop over to HR. I said goodbye to a few people and brought my boxes to my car and left.

There were tears, sure, but honestly, also a bit of relief. I was ready to go. I was already looking but it would have been nice to leave on my own terms and with another job lined up and ready. But regardless, I took Thursday to let myself feel the feels. To be upset, angry, worried, panicked, cry, sob, whatever I needed. But then it was time to pick myself back up. To trust that the Universe has my back and not only that everything happens for a reason but that everything happens in the right time.

Since it happened, my daily headaches have nearly vanished. My anxiety can be up (at times) but for the most part, there’s an overall feeling of peace. I don’t know what’s next for me and while I’m searching for jobs and trying to teach yoga, I’m also trusting and believing and reassuring myself that everything will be okay.

Because it always is OK.

Have you ever been laid off? How did you take it? Any advice? (Aside from filing for unemployment right away – check!) 

24 thoughts on “What Happened”

  1. I feel for you, Katie. This has happened to me before and you’re right – that feeling you get before the ax comes down is a weird, ominous one. I’m glad to hear that you’re taking this chapter ending as a positive thing and that your stress levels have been better since leaving this job. I know you’ll be awesome in your next position! <3

    1. Isn’t it freeing? I FEEL free and hopeful for my future, and while there are moments of panic over the lack of income, I can’t deny that I haven’t had a headache since I lost my job…(except after the evening I drank 2 glasses of red wine).

    1. Definitely, great things are coming. I have my moments, but I’m really feeling quite positive about the whole situation.

  2. Wow. What I can not get over is you were already working on an alternative plan. Teaching yoga. What else would you like to do? Do you need another full time job? What does your ideal look like to you?

    I also have a day job that sometimes appears to be precarious. I am also working on alternatives.

    1. Isn’t that crazy?! I’m looking at full and part-time options in marketing or anything that maybe seems like a good fit while still allowing me the flexibility to teach yoga on the side.

  3. I’m so sorry to hear you lost your job but it sounds like the change is maybe needed. I hope the next step in your journey is a good one!

  4. Oh momma…I’m so sorry to hear this happened to you. I used to work in the travel industry and experienced the same; then I moved on to publishing and was part of a massive cut there as well. It’s not a good feeling, but it provides a blank slate and a world of new opportunities. In both instances, I was feeling stuck and the layoffs were necessary to jumpstart my career.

    I’m here if you need to talk but can tell you two things with absolute certainty—the universe has your back and you will get through this <3

    1. Thank you, Charlotte! I’m definitely feeling really positive and trusting that things happen for a reason and how they’re supposed to. Good things are coming, even if there’s a lot of uncertainty.

  5. I’ve definitely been there. I felt great peace in my situation because the company was just not a good fit for me. I would reach out to contacts but in the mean time, take time for yourself and think about what you want to do next! Since you can teach yoga, maybe do that for a while longer and see what comes out of that! Sending you good vibes and always remember that the universe has your back!

  6. I’m so sorry to hear this, and I can’t imagine a mass lay-off meeting. I’m struggling to find a full time job, but I have been laid off from a part time one. It was still devastating and I honestly didn’t see this one coming at all. I’m currently wondering if I’m going to be laid off again – I work in higher education and budget cuts might be happening in my state – so it’s a weird feeling. You’ll be okay though, and I hope that whatever comes next will be a perfect fit!

    -Lauren

  7. Hey lady, I’m so sorry to hear this, but I think you have the right attitude – just keep moving forward and allow yourself to be at peace with what happened and see it as an opportunity for growth and change!

    The next thing will come and it will be better – just be patient! Rooting for you in this next chapter.

    1. Thank you, friend! Every moment is always so positive, but overall, I feel the strength and belief that this happened for a very good reason.

  8. Your mind couldn’t be in a better place, I feel. Sure, there will be ups and downs, but you will push on (you already are). Stay with XO

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