Today is not my birthday, Monday was, and these are the words that I wrote the morning of my birthday.
So this is 30, huh?
Did I wake up expecting to feel different? For every circumstance in my life to be different? For the things that aren’t serving me to just go poof and be gone?
No, of course not.
This Journey TO 30 has been (and still is) a work in progress to each and every one of those things. My life is not perfect and we all know I do not have all of my sh*t all together, but I do know that especially over the last two years of my life, I have pushed through some pretty rough patches and found my authentic self more than I maybe ever knew was possible or was hiding within myself.
As I wrote out my desires last night, I made a wish that I remember also making when I turned 20, “I want to strive for my healthiest, happiest and best days of my life so far in my thirties.” It’s simple, but it’s meaningful and appropriate for me. I have no doubts saying that I did accomplish that with my twenties and I’m excited to see how that evolves to happen in my thirties.
My twenties brought about a lot of change and growth. I became even more self aware of my mind and body, what triggers me, what makes me feel good, what serves me and what doesn’t. I want more of the same in my thirties, but on a whole other level.
I want to keep growing, learning, expanding; I want to keep getting healthier in my mind and in my body; I want to be fully comfortable in my skin and only wear clothes that make me feel truly confident and beautiful; I want to find stability and grow roots; I want to be open to a love that I have never experienced before; I want to be a better friend, daughter, sister, cousin, niece, co-worker, teacher, student, speaker, listener, writer, feminist, and just overall badass person.
I’m excited for my thirties. I joke with people that I am officially “old” but I know that I’m not even close. I know that really my life is just beginning, just getting started, and about to get even more amazing, exciting and beautiful.
So if this is 30, I’ll definitely take it.