Do you ever wake up with a hit of inspiration? Whether it be something to write about or an idea that more closely fits into your creativity realm?
I can say with certainty that this is something that happens to me quite frequently, but the one that hit early Sunday morning is latest and man, it’s annoying. It was maybe 4 or 4:30, and right in line with my usual wake up time during the week but a bit early for Sunday as I had set my alarm for 5:30 and was planning to enjoy that extra little hour of sleep.
I’m going to be completely honest with you today. I was pretty CRABBY for about a week and a half for what felt to me like “no reason,” but truth be told, I think the reason was a lack of reserve. I meditate, workout, run, go to yoga, chat with friends, go for walks, shut out the world, garden, etc and I help combat some of the negativity that happens in and around me, but I hadn’t actually built up a reserve; something I could tap into when the unexpected happens and suddenly I’m clawing for a way out.
That sounds a bit more dramatic than it actually is, I know, but when you’re in the moment and when you’re someone who is prone to anxiety or depression, that’s sure how it feels.
What makes a dream job a dream? Can a dream job still be a dream job if it’s not in the location you want it to be? Is it still a dream job if it means sacrificing something else that is extremely important to your heart? What truly makes a dream job and do they even exist?
I’ve found myself a bit lost lately as I navigate what I want my future to look like. I’m realizing some things that are working, some things that aren’t, some that need to be more short term, and some that are long term. I’m being rather vague for a reason; I’m not ready to dive into all the details that I’m feeling, at least not yet. And honestly, I’m still trying to understand what some of those feelings actually are.